And as for 2011 goals...






I don't have any. When you get sick, as I am, you realize that there's no point in having goals because you never know what's going to happen to you. All I can do is take one day at a time. ONE DAY. That is all. I don't even want to see beyond a week. I used to be a workaholic and in a lot of ways I miss that. I had a lot of drive. I hope to get that back when I get things under control but I don't think I can ever have large goals again. I had a dream last night and my grandmother was in it. She died when I was a teenager. She was going to my funeral. I really miss her a lot. I'm not saying I'm going to die. All I'm saying is that goals would only make my situation worse. I feel like I can be a better person each day without them. I go to the gym regularly, I try to get my protein in, I try to update my website and be creative... and I'm getting myself out there. I feel that that's enough.